back to life, back to reality...

For the first time, I combined my two different background of friends... The terlampau dancers (and choreographers) and the same old favourite people of mine... I shall not talk about the food as the recipes were retrived from the net... So there was nothing to shout about. Still I was busy since the first guest arrived. There were only two pix of mine, from my camera...just because I was in the kitchen the whole time.... Anyway, I do hope they've enjoyed themselves. Sorry folks, my mistake... Prep was done at the very last minute since I overlooked the possible hiccups that might happen during the prep. Thanks to Cikgu Ain for frying the garlic bread. ( I was expecting Pak Teh but Cikgu Ain turned up with the chocolate cake.... eh? ada ke?) and for sending Ismah home. Ajit and Zali for lighting up the candles, bringing the dessert, for the never-ending stupid jokes and the gaul thingy. Anita, Vivid for coming all the way from the lost highway and the yummy orange cake. Which by the way not many ate (thank god!!!! Its all mine now!!!!!) Cikgu Zaini for coming after the show... it was late but you made it... Fuad, for making your way over.... touched...

'Ismah for turning up with Adam and the fruits....
Faiz, Mumtaz, Batrisya, for the famous amos... and for wati...har har har...
Komar, the lotus seed and being a sport (staying back to help us clear the mess)
Shaniza, Arif for the donuts.... fattening but SEDAP GILER!!! (Arif, next time bring all your instruments..... Shaniza next time, let him drive his car..... Looks like my next gathering is gonna be soon sbb ada saxophonist nak perform... F.O.C. kannnnn???!!!!!)
Naz, Rai thanks for helping us clear up the mess (Rai je, Naz sibuk download lagu) and those beautiful ambers........

Thebo, Mummy, Thunder, Troy, Tek Tomel, Trey for being patient in the lock-up...
Lastly, my whoRld wide worRRld thank you to Din.

Thank you all and enjoy the photos

mumtaz, batrisya, faiz, komar

arif, cikgu ain (posing OVERRRRR!!!)

shaniza, komar

arif, shaniza

naz (as usual with his chilli sauce), rai

zali, ismah, adam

anita, vivid, din, ajit kaur

same people, different angle @ the smoking section

again, same people, different angle.. (tengah tunggu hot dog kot masa ni?)

dishes washed, carpets cleared, break time. candid by din.

sweet revenge... tido pun ada style ke?

My shattered dreams

HE BOUGHT ME A CAKE FOR MY BIRTHDAY.... INTERVAL DURING PRACTISE.. YAHOOOOOOO!!!

DIDN'T GET THE RIGHT EXPRESSION YET!!!! SIGH!

AT THE PJ's PARTY.... DARK CIRCLES? YUP!!!!
A DAY BEFORE THE SHOW....

GREAT PARTNER! BEFORE THE SHOWTIME....

MY #1 FAN.....

FRIENDS WHO NEVER FAIL TO SUPPORT!!!!

AFTER THE SHOW.... BERANGAN...

AFTER THE SHOW TEA PARTY



SO? WHAT SHATTERED DREAMS WAS I TALKING ABOUT?????????

my shattered dreams (part i)

"Mak, mak, do you think you can enroll me in the piano class?"
"No, we can't afford it"

"Mak, mak do you think you can send me for ballet lessons?"
"No, we can't afford it"

As a child, these two questions were often being asked by me to my mother. It had always been NO though everyone realised the talents I have. Since primary school, I was active performing at any concerts held by the school. When I went to secondary, I was also active. Only this time, acting was included. Acting comes naturally for me as the whole lot of my siblings are very animated. I was once offered by SBC to do a programme with them but since I was still in school, headmistress thought it would not be the best for me. My dream of becoming a performer shattered...

I love acting but it requires a lot of concentration and it can sometimes be tedious. So, I prefer dancing. I always end up with my jaw on my chest whenever I see dancers performing. Their talents of wearing heels to dance never fail to impress me more. Their grace movements always make it impossible to communicate with me. Their endless smiles are always contagious. The perfect body they have, makes me wanna lose my lunch after looking at mine.
In short I adore them as they are living my dreams.

five, six, seven, eight. one two three four five six seven eight. two two three four five six seven eight. three two three four five six seven eight. That is my favourite way of counting. Counting the steps in a dance movement. to be cont.....

twins that are full of crab(p)

what's with her? looking for me whenever she's in need.
well, I am a friend indeed,
but why the crabs?
I define logic as no one else can?

she thought I am a changed person who will do nothing bad,
just because I dispence advice in wisdom,
well, that's the problem,
unfortunately being astute to myself is what I am not good at.

I am just full of crap,
I am just like the goldfish that tend to forget,
I do a lot of listening, talking and gossiping,
I am still a child who will never stop playing..

personally, in today's news...

FUU-YOH - Gigi King attempts to pull 3 train carriages in conjuction with the nation's 50th birthday.....

SAD - Mr Tan, stabbed to death after trying to stop a car theft.

DEPRESSING - Nuri helicopter went missing. ( a friend's dad died in one of the NURI tragedy)

BETUL KE? - penang bridge in 2011.

BESTNYA - The King and I at Istana Budaya... (rugi tak pegi, pi joli sape suruh?)

AGREE - Rais Yatim said watch the movie first before you wanna call for ban, itu pun kena cakap ke? Ish! Ish! Ish!

WOW - guardian's sale...

HATE - Enfagrow A+ & Enfakid A+ full-paged advertisement!!! (geliiiiiiiiiiii)

IF ONLY - Equestrian...... Sigh..

EVEN MORE DEPRESSING - Wearable: The casual Spring/summer look from Nichii Fashion City.......... duh!!!!!! so not wearable for me!!!!!!

OMG - Ad of Empire Classic Furniture, endorsed by........ hahahahahahahahahaha

FLUKE - sourgrape, Pakcik Ghani won Rm30,000 by buying a packet of Alicafe...

NAK NANGIS - Ad: IT JUST WORKS, IT'S TIME FOR A MAC.............

no no no no drama

Fuyoo..... macho lah mamat ni..... tapi bila kecewa, dia botakkan kepala....
Wahhhh.... minah ni sempoi la.... tapi bila dia kecewa, dia shopping sepenuh jiwa....
Bila kata dia orang tipu, dia orang tak suka,
Bila kata dia orang bodoh, dia orang marah pula...

Apalah punya kerja ni? tak indah seperti rupa,
Duit habis, kepala botak setiap kali merana ke?

Korang ni memang mengada-ngada tau,
Aku kahwin kan dua-dua,
Biar korang rasa,
Ambik kau, duit habis, kepala botak sampai bila-bila....

Syukurlah dengan apa yg kita ada,
Itu test dari DIA,
Kita sabar aja,
harap harap satu hari kan sempurna....

Tak gitu? drama betul lah korang berdua,
asyik ntah apa apa je,
memanglah serupa,
dah itu best friend dia......

specially dedicated to the King of all dramas, from the Queen herself......

at her best...

She woke up at 9 am to the sound of a ringing telephone. Her partner was on the other line. They spoke for an hour updating details of dramas that had transpired during the absence of each other.

Her cats were looking at her extensively with a hunger strike expression. They followed her down hyper sonically. They waited patiently when she opened the front door. Their eyes followed her every moves. She fed the fish. Dreamily looking at their gracious movements. Finally she said something and they rushed to the fridge indicating they wish to eat the can food today. She obliged. Fed them and made her a cup of coffee while reading all the mails received while she was away. Damn! the electricity bill arrived already?

The sound of mortar and pestle clanking in her neighbourhood indicated that noon was nearing. She smiled when the aroma of sweet delicious curry ascending her home. While the others were busy smelling like a fish in the kitchen, she was admiring her fish in the pond thinking she has nothing to think about. She laughed hysterically and found it ridiculously amusing. Scooping out tadpoles from her pond relaxed her mind. No work for two weeks excite her a little. Mending the plants in the pond was tranquilizing....

Ahhhhh she thought to herself, breathing deeply... What more do I want when this is the best life one could get.....

Drama minggu ini....

Oh well, life is such. The very last day before your 2 week leave, shit happens.
I am simply frustrated and wish I could PUNCH, SMASH HIS HEAD, SPIT IN HIS FACE, BREAK A BOTTLE AND THRUST IT IN HIS STOMACH, PULL HIS HAIR, SIT ON HIS SKINNY BODY TILL I HEAR HIS BONES BREAKING, KICK HIS BALLS, BITE HIS EARS, PULL OUT HIS EYEBALLS AND FINALLY SCOOP HIS HEART WITH A SPOON....................... VERY VERY VERY SLOOOOOWWWWWWWWLLLLLLLLLLLYYYYYYY!!

guessing game!!!!

During dinner last night with a bunch of friends that I have not been hanging out for a very long time, the topic about signs or better known as Zodiac was discussed. Some asked me, is Libra selfish? Gemini is moody right? Well, I can tell you that those assumptions are incorrect!!
So, let's see if you could match the zodiac with how Beyonce (yes..... That bootylicious Beyonce) interprets each sign..... ready?

1. AFFECTIONATE
2. BEHAVE LIKE LEO, ARIES OR GEMINI
3. BOSSY
4. INTELLIGENT
5. EXPRESS LESS ( unfortunately this was my interpretation, Beyonce skipped this particular sign-dunno why....)
6. FLIP SIDED
7. FLIRTATIOUS
8. FREAKY
9. FUN
10. SENSITIVE
11. SEXY
12. SWITCH MOVES AFTER HE'S/SHE'S BEEN WITH YOU

a. ARIES b. TAURUS c. GEMINI d. CANCER e. LEO f. VIRGO g. LIBRA
h. SCORPIO i. SAGITTARIUS j. CAPRICORN k. AQUARIUS l. PISCES

emmmmmmmm.... the least you could do is try to figure out which one is you......
all the best y'all!!!!!!!

answer in one week.... or longer.

The Dalmatian and his master

While enjoying my coffee and goreng pisang for tea, a Dalmatian and his master were taking a walk. They stopped right in front of my house. I said, HELLO! His master said Hi and began talking.

the unknown " are these your cats "
the known " why, yes they are " sensing something unpleasant gonna come from the unknown.

the unknown " your cats love to roam at night "
the known " I'm sure they do, it's them by nature though I only have a cat (out of 6) who roams and always come back at night. "
the unknown " there your black cat! "
the known " black? " (are you color blind??? i don't have any black cats!!!!!!)
the unknown " the black cat with a stripe! "
the known " yes, the striped cat... "

the unknown " she comes to the house and my dog will bark and it can be annoying "
the known " okey, i will tell her not to roam at night ok? " (and you must tell your dog not to bark at night as well!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) how silly!

the unknown felt uneasy and continued " I thought this is supposed to be a Chinese house? "
the known " and why is that? "
the unknown " because only Chinese have beautiful houses!!!! " (i felt like losing my goreng pisang!!!!) " normally, Malays don't have nice houses... "
the known (emm, not only he is silly, he is darn bloody racist too!!!!) " well then, I guess this is the first time you are looking at a nice Malay house, it's a new lesson for you isn't it? "
the unknown " ah ah yeah...... "

the known " may be you can come around sometimes and let your dog be friends with my cats "
the unknown " may be not right now, may be after my exams "
the known " exams? and how old are you? "
the unknown " fourteen "

emmmmm, that explains. I looked at him differently after the silly conversation I had with him. May be he is not exposed. He was just saying what he was thinking without even thinking. A typical unexposed child whose world revolves around home works and books. Oh darling little (not so) boy, one day I hope you grow up and learn to be tactful. And if you happen not to be intelligent, I hope you will learn how to have at least an intelligent conversation. As for me, I am the queen of all dramas..... The famous hypocrite..... The sarcastic cat owner..... I am good at being who I want to be at a certain particular moment...

and by the way, I was sincere when I told you to bring Pongo again. He look like a nice Dalmatian......

simplest pleasure in life

People say that some of us grow old and some of us grow up. In my case, I am both. Fortunately, my growing old is a forgiven behaviour and habits.

I recently realised that it was never about how much the gift cost. Yeah, yeah sure I often say its the thoughts that count. But do I really mean it? Do I? Emmmmmmm I wonder......

A friend bought me a key chain with my initial. A key chain that I often see, a key chain that I would never get for myself. But I treasure it. It put a smile on my face every time I look at it because it was bought with me in mind. He thought of me when he saw the key chain... He was not pressured into buying me a gift. It was at the spur of the moment, he saw, thought of me, bought it. I thought that was sweet. To begin with I was never close to this person but getting a simple gift from him, made me felt all of the sincerity he had.

Getting handmade accessories always, almost put me to tears. Spending hours to get the right custom made necklace for me, is something you will never ever forget. Never.

So, I received an ipod shuffle? Big Deal!!!! YES ITS A BIG DEAL!!!!! Ex partner in crime actually thought of me when she purchased one for herself.... It's truly not about how much the ipod cost but not seeing her as often as I wish, receiving anything from her is a big deal.... She thought of me... Yup, she did....

You see, it is really not about the price of the gift, getting thought about is the best gift ever. So be it rm14 or rm1400, it will always be about the thoughts and not the price tags... It's that simple. Or is it?

my current simplest pleasure in life, practising and act child like....

conversation of a Gemini

it was soooooo petty,
it was even stupid,
could it be jealousy?
may be...?

but how could i not be?
when it was then always about me, me, me?
oh.....grow up you pathetic looking creature!!
things change you hear?????!!!!

but it was me who
had intensively listened to his explanations,
and it was me who
had exhaustively watched him draw,
and it was me who
steadily smelt his pencil lead against the paper,
and it was me who
had searchingly tasted his dreams,
and it was me who
had been helping him to touch his goals...
it was me.... it had always been me...

hahahahahahahahahahaha,
and i thought you claim that you are smart!
haven't you notice you fool?
oh dear!!!! you are so naive as your art!!
you've used had and was,
isn't that things of the past?
huh! hahahaha... you are not that wise!!!!!

NO!!!!! how could this be?
when i'm an ally, friend and supporter,
i'm not a foe nor a traitor,
i never was an intruder, outsider or a stranger!!

oh you schmuck moron!
priorities have changed,
haven't you notice?
whatever he does, it is his prerogative!

hukk hukk hukk,
(oh stop wailing!!!!!!!!!!)
no, no wait....
i know you've got a point,
it just so difficult to grasp...
it's difficult to digest and comprehend....
it's not easy to understand..

oh tsk tsk tsk you pitiful character....
i'll weep with you if you want me to,
take your time to grieve,
pretty soon you will again live...
may be i was being too mean,
know what? may be there is a simple explanation,
give him that space he so ever need,
may be you can make this an exemption.

yeah, may be i could,
it's the first time he committed a crime,
apologise i would,
hopefully we'll be ever so fine...